The SnowStanding in the fallen snow,The Snow by Kitrakaya
I search for no one, I stand alone.
Breathless silence for miles around,
Only one set of footprints remain on the ground.
No one else stands beside me now,
Only ghosts from the past linger 'round about,
Reminding my heart of a bitter chill,
That tore through my soul, and stole my will.
I once stood circled by many a presence...
Others that shielded, protected my essence;
Friends and family that I grew to love,
Abandoned by all, when all's said and done.
Life is now barren, bleak desert of white,
Coldly comforting me this night.
It's soft embrace turning me to stone,
I have no one... I stand alone.
An open letter to my former best friendI was the closest to suicidal I had ever beenAn open letter to my former best friend by BeItLacking
when I made the call.
We started out with light conversation that
steadily grew heavier,
with mentions of mental illness and
confessions of depression.
Even as I tried to lessen the tension it
tightened around my neck like a noose
and my mouth was far too loose
when I asked.
The question wasn't as much of
a question as it was a test,
but you weren't ready yet.
I was the closest to suicidal I had ever been
when I made the call
and you weren't ready yet.
I learned that day that there is a difference between
being early and being punctual.
That all things need preparation and that
being on time doesn't mean
'Punctual' and 'Early' can be the difference between
landing on-site and landing in the middle of the ocean.
I landed in the ocean
And drowned in your shallow response.
It would be years before you were ready,
it would be years before you became that person I
thought you were,
and it would be years before you became
DeadYou may see me,Dead by NoxFairy
But I'm already lost.
My soul has been frozen,
Under the nights frost.
My body is so numb,
I can't feel a thing.
Hidden under the moonlight.
And my bare broken wings.
I've fallen, from life.
And remain as a void.
Before I knew the worst,
And my heart destroyed.
You killed all of me,
But you never knew.
You killed me emotionally,
So there was never a trace or clue.
How could I feel dead,
While I'm still breathing?
But I only wanted revenge.
As my heart was seething.
But all life has died in me.
Only if I could be alive.
But the truth be told,
I wouldn't survive.
ForgottenI have forgotten what it's like,Forgotten by NoxFairy
To be cared for.
What it's like to be seen,
And not always ignored.
I wish I could say,
I knew what happiness was.
My sorrowful world took away.
I still remember you,
You made me feel this way.
But now that you're gone,
It can't pretend it's okay.
Why am I living,
In a world of no trust?
I promised I'd only take my life,
If I truly must.
No one would care,
If I was gone.
Because then I would only,
Be forgotten once more.
An artistic creative kitty with a taste for anime/manga, 80's cartoons/shows/movies/music, art/fanart, comics, toys/collectibles, games, extreme cuteness, maneki nekos, esoteric knowledge, good eats, and bubble tea. |
Current Residence: Delaware, USA
Favourite genre of music: Rock, though I listen to many others.
Favourite style of art: Practically any good art style, and I adore cute things and chibis.
Operating System: Windows Vista
Favourite cartoon character: Peter Venkman (Real Ghostbusters)
Personal Quote: "A thorn defends the rose, harming only those who would steal the blossom."